Maby... Just Maby

fuck

Mon, 07 Aug 2006 04:43:48 GMT

well the boat broke down so i think im out of a job.

Mon, 12 Jun 2006 02:31:07 GMT

last time i update this lj, last time i see most of you, last time we talk, so...
yah.

Peace.

Sun, 11 Jun 2006 10:13:57 GMT

First Off, Less Than 25 Houres Till The Plane Takes Off.

Second Off, The System Can Suck My Balls

Sat, 10 Jun 2006 22:41:04 GMT

come monday im shutting this lj down. im switching over to a myspace. just thought i should give anyone who cares forwarning.

Fri, 09 Jun 2006 21:54:26 GMT

O Yah Grad Party Today At My House 6-10

Wed, 07 Jun 2006 22:03:45 GMT

Now That I THink About It All She Dose Is Stare At Me.

Wed, 07 Jun 2006 17:13:28 GMT

You Know Your Having A Good Day When You Buy 2 Dozen Krispy Kreme's For No Good Reason

Tue, 06 Jun 2006 16:27:57 GMT

6 days

6 days to party it up.

Sun, 04 Jun 2006 16:55:26 GMT

Live From Marquette,
It's Sunday Afternoon!

Thu, 01 Jun 2006 03:15:37 GMT

all i had to do was say no, but i fucked it up.

sigh

12 days ian 12 days

Thu, 01 Jun 2006 02:24:27 GMT

12

And Some How Ive Gotten In Over My Head.

Wed, 31 May 2006 03:09:12 GMT

Im Down To 13 Days, Yet I Cant Stop Myself.

A Doughnut Would Be Nice But Ice Cream Is Easyer To Catch.

Mon, 29 May 2006 19:49:18 GMT

Two Weeks,

I Whent For A Doughnut And A Girl Today, But I Left With A Brain Freeze.

Mon, 29 May 2006 03:36:32 GMT

Ah... The A/C Feels Good On My Face.

And I Think Its Doughnut Time Agian.

You and I in a little toy shop
Buy a bag of balloons
With the money we've got
Set them free at the break of dawn
'Til one by one, they were gone
Back at base, bugs in the software
Flash the message
"Something's out there"
Floating in the summer sky
99 red balloons go by

99 red balloons
Floating in the summer sky
Panic bells, it's red alert
There's something here
From somewhere else
The war machine springs to life
Opens up one eager eye
Focusing it on the sky
Where 99 red balloons go by

99 Decision Street
99 ministers meet
To worry, worry, super-scurry
Call the troops out in a hurry
This is what we've waited for
This is it boys, this is war
The president is on the line
As 99 red balloons go by

[Instrumental Interlude]

99 Knights of the airway
Ride super-high-tech jet fighters
Everyone's a Silverhero
Everyone's a Captain Kirk
With orders to identify
To clarify and classify
Scramble in the summer sky
As 99 red balloons go by

As 99 red balloons go by

99 dreams I have had
In every one a red balloon
It's all over and I'm standin' pretty
In this dust that was a city
If I could find a souvenier
Just to prove the world was here
And here is a red balloon
I think of you and let it go

Sat, 27 May 2006 22:08:11 GMT

Ugh The Second Time In A Row I'm Stuck At Home Wating For A Call, Than I Never Got. Ugh. 16 days

Sat, 27 May 2006 03:39:07 GMT

I Think My Inernal Compass Points Down.

Thu, 25 May 2006 03:28:13 GMT

Why Dose She Prosist On Doing That

Here's To Scott...

Tue, 23 May 2006 21:58:10 GMT

Here's To Scott, The Best Manager I Was Ever Managed By

Here's To Scott, For Saying All Those Things That We Are Thinking But Are To Scared To Say Them

Here's To Scott, The One Who Just Likes To Have Fun

Here's To Scott, The Scapegoat Of The System

Here's To Scott, The One That No Longer Works At The Community Center

Here's To Scott...

Good Luck Out There Man.

Tue, 23 May 2006 01:15:13 GMT

im boring, and sick. but i only got 3 days of school this week and one is allredy gone. looking forward to tamarow, dont know why. i just know its going to be a good day. and other than that i leave in exactaly 3 weeks, woot.

Mon, 22 May 2006 02:02:21 GMT

ugh, 23 days left, and yet i cant stop myself.

Sun, 21 May 2006 01:05:44 GMT

Good Day Today. My Hot Dog Idea At Work Is Chetching On, Helped Build A Thing For The Grandparrents, And NMU Sent Me A Letter Accpting Me. Good Stuff.

Wed, 17 May 2006 19:45:24 GMT

A Letter From Kate To Me, Enojy

You don't have to be so rude. I just thought that maybe you'd want to know what's going on in your old friends lives, but apparently you're a bigger jerk than I thought. Be expecting a nice chat from some people.

Yah I'm The Jerk, Ok Kate.

P.S. When Should I Expect This "chat" And From Who. I Don't Think There Is One.

Wed, 17 May 2006 01:49:15 GMT

I don't care what you do
I'm getting out
No nothing ever shames me
Don't wanna thing from you
I'm going out
I don't care if you're angry
I'm getting out
No nothing ever shames me
I'm going out
I don't care if you're angry
I should've thought things through
I'm holding out
But not getting an answer
I wanna do right by you
I'm finding out
Cheating gets it faster
I'm holding out
Not getting an answer
I'm finding out that
Cheating gets it faster
I'm holding out
But not getting an answer
I'm finding out
Cheating gets it faster
I don't care what you do
I'm getting out
No nothing ever shames me
Don't wanna thing from you
I'm going out
I don't care if you're angry
I should've thought things through
Yeah I'm holding out
But not getting an answer
I wanna do right by you
I'm finding out that
Cheating gets it faster
I'm getting out
No nothing ever shames me
I'm going out
I don't care if you're angry
I holding out
But not getting an answer
I'm finding out
Cheating gets it faster

I'm Calling Your Bluff

Tue, 16 May 2006 01:01:04 GMT

third post today i know its horabal,

allright i just took a piss and now im redy to go, you might want to hit the bathroom to befor you reed this.

with only 28 days left here in troy, things seem to not matter anymore to me. im not commpleatly shure but i think in 28 days when i leave i wont ever see anyone i know agian, yah it sound harsh but its the truth. and i am fine with that excpt that i think i am leaving on a bad note with almost all of anyone that reads this. ive pissed off a lot of people in my time and this is no appolgy so dont take it like that, but im just wondering if that will come around and bite me in the ass after i leave. a conflict is beginning in my mind over should i try to please everyone befor i go in 28 days, or should i just say fuck it and leave it be. with only 28 days left i think pleasing everyone i know is not possabal. nor do i want that in some cases, some people here in troy have pissed me off so much that i dont ever want to talk to them. its gotten so bad that i have come close to thinking that everyone in troy is a dick. do i rely want to be on good tearms with a bunch of dicks. now im not saying that all of you are dicks just some of ya are killing the immage for the rest of you. maby i crazy, but with only 28 days its like i could get awhay with almost anything and not have to pay a long tearm price, its a hard trap to fall into. some times i just want to say what i rely think about people just to cause some chaos and leave befor it all blows up in my face you know. but i dont think i can do that. not just yet anyways its to early and the people that get on my nearvs have kind laid off for now. only 28 days and im gone, it almost seems unreal. another thing that been bothering me for a bit. my mom rely wants me to invite all my freinds over for a grad party. i just want to leave. i dont want to go therw the stress of picking out who is actaly a freind and who is just playing me. sounds like this party will be the friday befor graduation. so if you see this and your not a dick ask me for more details and ill probably get them to you last sceond. but my mind is wondering, only 28 days. another question is not if i will see any of you agian but if i rely want to see any of you agian, harsh agian i know but hear me out. you all know some of my past. a past that i am ashamed of for one reason or another, maby its because i was a dick to you or maby i did somting embarsing in front of you. but it seems like living without a past is easyer that living with one. it leaves a chance for change that if i were to do now would seem weird and out of place. learn from the mistakes of the past that only you know and better your self without any one bring up the way thing use to be. a fresh start. it sound nice when you say it but its a lot to give up to get a freash start. is it truly worth it? given how much stuf i have scerwed up around here it dosent sound like that much to give up for a second chance at a social life. tofught choices and and only 28 days to make them. a lot of people are pissed off at me for everything i have done but am i redy to give that all up and the people i havent pissed off for a new life almost. honestly right now it dosent sound that bad. and once agian i know that sound crule and makes me sound like a dick but can i make up for all the things i have done, and in 28 days that seems almost impossabal. to start agian and roal the dice and give up everyone i know or stay with them and live with what ive got right now. well what do i have right now i guess is a good question. i know a lot of people here and there not rely good freinds with any of them i just kind of know them. i dont have a girlfreind, not shure if that means anything. and i spend most of my day at home or work. hum... honestaly its not much and i think i could do better. but i dont know anything for shure. yah it sound like a good deal right now. and yah that sound bad i know it dose, maby im just selfish. i think if thing stay the way thay are i will take it. 28 days, only 28 days intill everything changes. it almost seems to good. scarry good. i think i am crazy.

Mon, 15 May 2006 23:41:57 GMT

Anyone Got A Gun, I Need To Shoot My Magic Eight Ball.